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Ryuunosuke Akutagawa ⬤ Bungou Stray Dogs
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Moonblessing⬤ Sanguis

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[killercoat]

I am?

[There's disbelief in his voice. He wants to believe Atsushi, but he doesn't think he's worthy.]

Why? I'm not a good person, and I only care about myself.

[tigerpoet]

You've cared about me before. [Even if it comes out strangely in Sanguis, it's rooted in a place of caring.] And you became the kind of person you had to be to survive - I can't judge you for that.

You make my life better by being in it.

[Isn't that enough?]

[killercoat]

I do care...

[Though bad things always happen to those he cares about, or they disappear. He just doesn't want to feel that emptiness again.

Though it's enough, even if Akutagawa doesn't agree that he makes Atsushi's life better.]

But it's the other way around. It's less lonely with you around.

[tigerpoet]

It can be both.

[An equal friendship means both of them improving each other's lives.]

[killercoat]

It can be.

[Even if he doesn't know what balance is, but he thinks he can try to navigate his way through this. Improving someone else's life? He's never considered it before.]

I'm not sure how to be...

[ A friend? A human being? A good person?]

...what you need.

[tigerpoet]

That's okay. I don't think anyone's sure.

[If they are, they're probably wrong.]

[killercoat]

[ So it's okay not to know? He doesn't like unknowns, but...]

We'll work on that...together.

[ Surprising, coming from someone who normally does things alone and for himself.]

[tigerpoet]

Together.

[It's surprising, and it means all the more for that.]

I hope I can be what you need, if we can figure it out.

[killercoat]

I hope so too.

[Although, he's not sure of his wants and needs other than staying alive and receiving Dazai's praise. Though it would be good to explore, and he feels safe trying to figure that out with Atsushi.]

wrapup maybe

[tigerpoet]

[Atsushi doesn't know exactly what he needs or wants either, but he knows that Akutagawa is one of the people he wants and needs.]

Happy birthday again, Ryuunosuke. I'm glad we met.

wrapup

[killercoat]

[It's weird to hear that anyone is glad to meet him. Though, it does make him feel good.]

...Me too.

[He'll end the call.]